how do you feel? I just got back from my morning walk to get a coffee and some cigarettes, laboring all the way back.
the 4 block walk there isn't so bad but the last 3 blocks home are tough. granted i did get fuckin' plowed, and plowed hard by
a car not long ago while on my bike. was bed ridden for over 3 months, and am still not right whatsoever.
anyway, at 47, which is an absolute miracle, i never thought i'd make 30, then i thought i'd never reach 40,
and now pushing 50 in 2 and half more years, i'm thinking it's time to bag the cigarettes. it's really a simple
decision, they cost 3,000.00 a pack, and they kill you. but just from walking i could really feel my body and lungs just saying
"tommy, i appreciate all the baggage you've dropped off along the way the last 4 plus years, but can you please just
stop pouring filthy smoke down here, fuck!! for godsakes man! wake up!!"
through it all, i have retained a very youthful appearance, and trust me when i say i should look older than Keith from
the Stones with the way i raged for 43 years, but i must say i feel like i'm dying. from quitting all the other drugs, outside of pot,
(the only way for me to do that was when i finally got in trouble back in '08. and it wasn't for drugs or drunk driving etc.)
i think the only way is cold turkey. why do they call it cold turkey? i like cold turkey, it's pretty tasty in a sandwich.
they should just call it "cold". anyway, i still don't think i will make it to 50. not a chance. but is my punishment to continue living
without all the bells and whistles of the past to make up for said raging? I don't know.
but at least i know that i don't know. i need some serious input here on anyone
who has quit cigarettes. i'm a smoker, all the way, marlboro red soft pack, 1 a day. it's not good. why does it take this long to
figure that out? oh yeah, because i am fuckin' stupid, thus the asking for advice here.
can't go the electronic cigarette way, i'll be back on the reds in a day or two.
hope this monday morning is as beautiful outside for everyone as it is here.
the 4 block walk there isn't so bad but the last 3 blocks home are tough. granted i did get fuckin' plowed, and plowed hard by
a car not long ago while on my bike. was bed ridden for over 3 months, and am still not right whatsoever.
anyway, at 47, which is an absolute miracle, i never thought i'd make 30, then i thought i'd never reach 40,
and now pushing 50 in 2 and half more years, i'm thinking it's time to bag the cigarettes. it's really a simple
decision, they cost 3,000.00 a pack, and they kill you. but just from walking i could really feel my body and lungs just saying
"tommy, i appreciate all the baggage you've dropped off along the way the last 4 plus years, but can you please just
stop pouring filthy smoke down here, fuck!! for godsakes man! wake up!!"
through it all, i have retained a very youthful appearance, and trust me when i say i should look older than Keith from
the Stones with the way i raged for 43 years, but i must say i feel like i'm dying. from quitting all the other drugs, outside of pot,
(the only way for me to do that was when i finally got in trouble back in '08. and it wasn't for drugs or drunk driving etc.)
i think the only way is cold turkey. why do they call it cold turkey? i like cold turkey, it's pretty tasty in a sandwich.
they should just call it "cold". anyway, i still don't think i will make it to 50. not a chance. but is my punishment to continue living
without all the bells and whistles of the past to make up for said raging? I don't know.
but at least i know that i don't know. i need some serious input here on anyone
who has quit cigarettes. i'm a smoker, all the way, marlboro red soft pack, 1 a day. it's not good. why does it take this long to
figure that out? oh yeah, because i am fuckin' stupid, thus the asking for advice here.
can't go the electronic cigarette way, i'll be back on the reds in a day or two.
hope this monday morning is as beautiful outside for everyone as it is here.
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