How can I laugh tomorrow, if I can't even smile today....

[Jayster]

How can I laugh tomorrow, if I can't even smile today....




After a series of unfortunate events in my life, and some days filled with very dark thoughts. I'm glad to say that I'm starting to find me again....I'm facing a serious uphill challenge, but feel like I'm ready to face it now.

I've quit facebook(at least for a while, for anyone I was friends with).

Fuckin' Thrash on!!!!
\m/(>.<)\m/

[Razor]

Best of luck to you and keep your chin up.

[Sunbane]

That's the spirit! Good on you!

I need to quit FB too. Damn timesink of a thing.

[Razor]

I quit Facebook four years ago and haven't missed one damn thing about it!

[veemagic]

Good to hear Jay! Just keep listening to ST, they make everyday a bit better!

[xenophobe]

Life sucks... so you need to grab it and suck back. Gently though.... oh wait....

Anyway, I've been dealing with my own bullshit lately, just gotta get past it. Don't know what else to say. Just do it!

[Jayster]

Hahahahahahahahahaha, fucking A!!! Just went out to play some guitar(because it's something I enjoy(go figure)). AND, my head stopped working. Checked the primary fuse and it's good. I know there's 2 more on the board and I'll check those tomorrow, but just fuck................

[Rsmacker]

Fucking hell, I came here to PM you and check how things were, so I'm pleased to see you are on the up. Remember, I'm quite willing to come out there and take you on a Sodomy Quest (where we go out and bum as many slags as we can. The winner is the one who gets the most of them to wear a pig nose and crawl around squealing. Video evidence will be required. Porking a bloke means instant disqualification. Friendly fire is just plain bad manners.)

Sooooooo, what's the closest international airport? Y'know, just hypothetically...

Keep it up, mate, we're all sending you good vibes. (Oo-er, that could mean something waaaaay different...)

[VitaminG]

head up, Jay. Glad to hear you're turning things around

[Nightbat]

If there's one thing I like with shitty chapters in life, it's that it raises my sarcastic wit to new levels
Just a few more years and I'll be outdoing Blackadder/Perry Cox

Of course most the people don't seem very happy about it, then again most people never gave me much to be happy about either

[AdRock]

Keep your head up man. It's hard to sometimes but things will pass. And since the thread title made me think of the Suicidal Tendencies song of the same name I thought I'd post up the lyrics to "Can't bring me down". I've had some pretty down times and this tune just seems like someone yelling in the face of something or someone that's trying to take them down. It's a big FUCK YOU to the shitty situations and people that we all have to deal with. This song lifts me up a little every time I listen to it.

"You Can't Bring Me Down"

[Mike Muir/Rocky George]

What the hell's going on around here?

First off-let's take it from the start
Straight out-can't change what's in my heart
No one-can tear my beliefs apart, you can't bring me

You ain't-never seen no one like me
Prevail-regardless what the cost might be
Power-flows inside of me, you can't bring me

Never-fall as long as I try
Refuse-to be a part of your lie
Even-if it means I die, you can't bring me

You...can't...bring...me...down!

Who the hell you calling crazy? You wouldn't know what crazy was
If Charles Manson was eating fruit loops on your front porch....

Time out-let's get something clear
I speak-more truth than you want to hear
Scapegoat-to cover up your fear, you can't bring me

You ain't-never seen so much might
Fight for-what I know is right
What up-you got yourself a fight, you can't bring me

Stand up-we'll all sing along
Together-ain't nothin' as strong
Won't quit-we ain't in the wrong, you can't bring me

You...can't...bring...me...down!

Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down!

Tell them what's up Rocky!

You...can't...bring...me...down!

Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down!

So why you trying to bring me?
Well you can't bring me down...No, no, no, no
Can't bring me down....No, no, no, no, no, no
Can't bring me down....No, no, no, no, no, no
Can't bring me down....No, no, no, no, no, no
So why you trying to bring?
Well you can't bring me down

Just cause you don't understand what's going on don't mean it don't make no sense
And just cause you don't like it, don't mean it ain't no good
And let me tell you something;

Before you go taking a walk in my world
You better take a look at the real world
Cause this ain't no Mister Roger's Neighborhood

Can you say "feel like shit"?
Yea maybe sometimes I do feel like shit
I ain't happy 'bout it, but I'd rather feel like shit than be full of shit!

And if I offended you, oh I'm sorry...
But maybe you need to be offended
But here's my apology and one more thing...fuck you!

Cos you...can't...bring...me...down!

Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, no!
Bring me down-you can't bring me down, you can't bring me down!

Can't bring me down!
Can't bring me down!
Can't bring me down!

Suicidal!

[veemagic]

ST speaks the truth! They were, are, and will always be my favorite! Suicidal for life!

So Jay how are you now? I'd take Rs up on his offer. What could possibly go wrong?

[Jayster]

ST speaks the truth! They were, are, and will always be my favorite! Suicidal for life!

So Jay how are you now?

Funny question! Life has been very strange.... I don't eat enough and drink too much, I've lost 20 pounds in the last month and didn't need too. I play guitar more and my chops are getting back in shape, my Christian upbringing is becoming very shady... BUT, I've formed much better bonds with my kids and they're pretty fucking cool!

So I guess it's a wash, I can drink myself to death at a leisurely pace while I finish raising them, and then form a black metal band!

Nah, in a reality. Life is a primer in pain, and it's up to use who we let hurt us and that was a choice that I made. It would've been nice if things were different but it is what it is.... Born to lose and destined to fail!!!

Cheers!

[Rsmacker]

I'd take Rs up on his offer. What could possibly go wrong?

I know, right?

Just double dare me to turn up, see what happens. (Ask Tonemonster if I'm the kind of chap who is full of shit, I'm sure he'll vouch for me as being the kind of idiot who really DOES jump on planes when challenged)
Lock up yer livestock though!!

[straycat]

Yeah plenty of my own shit to deal with but I keep it to myself and deal with each thing one by one.
You will get thru it if you keep moving forward.