Just had a major rage episode.

[Spivonious]

I'm a go-with-the-flow kind of guy.

You're all freaks.

[hippietim]

I only get pissed off when people make fun of Zakk or my blue Squier Stratocaster.

[MartinBarre]

Smoking a bowl sounds like it might be the source of the problem.
I'm not preaching, I used to take speed every day, so I have an idea what shit like that can do.

Don't do drugs kids. Really.

[Jason1212]

If he got pissed then smoked how is it the problem? Just curious about how your logic works.

[Guitardude86]

I think it's a good thing you talk about it, even if it's on the internet. I've always been the quiet type and put up with more shit than I've had too, instead of just saying how I feel about things right away, because I don't want to offend anyone.
That is NOT the way to go about things and this last year it's become increasingly obvious that the shit is about to hit the fan.

People used to be uneasy around me because I was so quiet, but I would never really do anything. But the last few months I have done some very irrational things.
The first time I smashed some beermugs at a bar and left the place without saying a word.
After that, there have been a few times when I've been out with friends and I've hardly said a word all night, suddenly I get up very fast, say VERY LOUD "NAH, I GOTTA GO HOME", and storm out of there in one hell of a tempo, walking home instead of taking a bus or a taxi.

When it happens it's like being in a dream, I don't think about what I say or do it just goes on autopilot.

I've never been like this before, I know I don't attack other people physically, or verbally for that matter, but what scares the living daylight out of me is my complete lack of selfcontrol.

[zeegler]

What's your best distance when kicking the cat? I don't have a cat anymore but I've done 12-15 feet before. I like it when they spiral like a football.

Is that a joke? I don't think hurting defenseless animals is funny at all.

[toejam]

Smoking a bowl sounds like it might be the source of the problem.
I'm not preaching, I used to take speed every day, so I have an idea what shit like that can do.

Don't do drugs kids. Really.

Smoking a bowl of pot is a lot different than doing speed.

[MartyFriedmanIsMaster]

Oh god speed and weed are two way-different things... One can give you lung cancer in maybe 40 years, and make you lose brain cells. Then the other can get you addicted and have seizures, heart problems, fucking I don't even know.

[MikeStrat]

Is that a joke? I don't think hurting defenseless animals is funny at all.

Relax man. The thread started out with the cat that left the door open and let the ants in. I knew somebody was going to have a problem with what I wrote. It was a joke. There are more important things to stress about in the world than a stupid comment like mine.

Besides, a 20 pound cat is not defenseless. It will fuck you up! It's also hard on the feet trying to kick the damn thing and get any distance. Just kidding.

[jgcable]

Paul.. been there.... am still there. Normal shit as long as you can check yourself.

[horns666]

Do you realize that I was just just diagnosed with Misanthropy and Agoraphopia. On top of Adjustment anxiety disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome and Chronic Major Depression.

I hate people so much I say home at all times to avoid contact with them. I literally have anxiety attacks that shoot my blood pressure close to 200/140. That immediately turns to rage and aggression. It doesn't matter who or where. Whenver I perceive an act of disrepect, rudeness or blatant lack of common courtesy toward others, I confront them full on. It doesn't matter if I'm at the gas station waiting for some old fuck scratching their instant lotto tickets with a line of people behind them. Like they're the only ones in the fuggin' place. The first 30 seconds is on me..I give 'em that. Then my blood pressure boils at the 60 second mark..by the time we hit the 90 second mark I'm off and runnin'. You know what, it always works. They get the flying fuck outta my face!

I've struck people with my car walking slow on purpose. I beat the dicks off my rent-a-booger neighbors and made them move that week. Beat one with a mag-lite, just my .38 up another's nose.

I am the epitome of a ticking time bomb. That is why I avoid people whenver I possibly can.

I've see TWO shrinks every week for anger management and take meds for this shit since 3-29-2001 and it's only gotten worse.

I had to take action for rude, disrespectful behavior from giants in the ghetto and cultivated a demeanor, look and fighting skills that quickly establishes me as the alpha male in all situaltions. I fought young bucks, kickin' and screaming on a daily basis that make Lebron James look tiny. I don't acknowledge size, gender or status (lawyers, doctors, preist, ect) I arrasted all of the above. so to me nobody is exempt of being and asshole, and I have my way of treating assholes down to a science...and I'm always surrounded by assholes.

I used to break thinks, but that just cost me money. So I don't break things anymore. I save that energy for assholes.

But I treat my family and friends like gold.

This is my life..I know I won't live much past 50..if that. This had to do alot of i damage. but I can't get a grip on this no matter how much I try. I would eat my gun if my family didn't need me because I hate this world and the people on it. Death sounds so fuggin' comforting to me. I'm pissed that I'm needed. I saw death every single day icluding kids, countless friends, , and plenty of assholes. It doesn't mean much to me anymore. You should see how we're treated when we die..by the funeral home directors, coroner's and shit. No dignity at all. Like sacks of shit.

Yeah..I know about Rage. It's not even scary anymore. It's a way of a very miserable life.

You'll be OK Zeegs..love the family, enjoy yourself man, and take it easy

It's why I did a 180 with my faith in 1992.

It's guys like DRM (David) I'm concerened about. He's 4 years older than my son.

[toxikdeth]

Do you realize that I was just just diagnosed with Misanthropy and Agoraphopia. On top of Adjustment anxiety disorder, Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome and Chronic Major Depression.

I hate people so much I say home at all times to avoid contact with them. I literally have anxiety attacks that shoot my blood pressure close to 200/140. That immediately turns to rage and aggression. It doesn't matter who or where. Whenver I perceive an act of disrepect, rudeness or blatant lack of common courtesy toward others, I confront them full on. It doesn't matter if I'm at the gas station waiting for some old fuck scratching their instant lotto tickets with a line of people behind them. Like they're the only ones in the fuggin' place. The first 30 seconds is on me..I give 'em that. Then my blood pressure boils at the 60 second mark..by the time we hit the 90 second mark I'm off and runnin'. You know what, it always works. They get the flying fuck outta my face!

I've struck people with my car walking slow on purpose. I beat the dicks off my rent-a-booger neighbors and made them move that week. Beat one with a mag-lite, just my .38 up another's nose.

I am the epitome of a ticking time bomb. That is why I avoid people whenver I possibly can.

I've see TWO shrinks every week for anger management and take meds for this shit since 3-29-2001 and it's only gotten worse.

I had to take action for rude, disrespectful behavior from giants in the ghetto and cultivated a demeanor, look and fighting skills that quickly establishes me as the alpha male in all situaltions. I fought young bucks, kickin' and screaming on a daily basis that make Lebron James look tiny. I don't acknowledge size, gender or status (lawyers, doctors, preist, ect) I arrasted all of the above. so to me nobody is exempt of being and asshole, and I have my way of treating assholes down to a science...and I'm always surrounded by assholes.

I used to break thinks, but that just cost me money. So I don't break things anymore. I save that energy for assholes.

But I treat my family and friends like gold.

This is my life..I know I won't live much past 50..if that. This had to do alot of i damage. but I can't get a grip on this no matter how much I try. I would eat my gun if my family didn't need me because I hate this world and the people on it. Death sounds so fuggin' comforting to me. I'm pissed that I'm needed. I saw death every single day icluding kids, countless friends, , and plenty of assholes. It doesn't mean much to me anymore. You should see how we're treated when we die..by the funeral home directors, coroner's and shit. No dignity at all. Like sacks of shit.

Yeah..I know about Rage. It's not even scary anymore. It's a way of a very miserable life.

You'll be OK Zeegs..love the family, enjoy yourself man, and take it easy

It's why I did a 180 with my faith in 1992.

It's guys like DRM (David) I'm concerened about. He's 4 years older than my son.

I am sorry to hear that

[horns666]

I am sorry to hear that

Yeah, It blows..it is what it is.

But I never lost my sense of humor..just with A holes!!

Humore is all >>I<< have left besides the ones I love..and metal. Playing guitar is becoming more of a problem for me..but that'll just get worse. At least my kid will have some nice equipment.

I'm more worried about my wife. She's going to be in a wheelchair. It's not if..it's when. I gotta be there for her. So, the only thing I really can look forward to without any sadness is with my son, with his family and kids..maybe one name Bill Z..I dunno.

[Hellbat]

I can only speak for myself here, but I think the world is a better place with Bill Z in it.

I probably can't imagine what being a cop in a place that rough would be like. All I can say is you gotta fight the depression and anxiety like you fought for your life on the streets. Time is the only commodity you are given in life. I plan on fighting for more of it as long as I can, so I can spend it with family and loved ones doing the things that I love to do. The other stuff is all worth it for that alone.

[toxikdeth]

Yeah, It blows..it is what it is.

But I never lost my sense of humor..just with A holes!!

Humore is all >>I<< have left besides the ones I love..and metal. Playing guitar is becoming more of a problem for me..but that'll just get worse. At least my kid will have some nice equipment.

I'm more worried about my wife. She's going to be in a wheelchair. It's not if..it's when. I gotta be there for her. So, the only thing I really can look forward to without any sadness is with my son, with his family and kids..maybe one name Bill Z..I dunno.

I do feel for you I know it may be slim but I hope things get better. There are to many a holes in this world to have to deal with I guess u just got to ignore them some times and just worry about family and friends. I do envy you for no fear of dying my time may not be anytime soon but I can't stand the thought of dying I enjoy life even with all the assholes their are too many people that I would not like to leave behind.